If I'm a good singer. I enjoy doing it. I wonder why so many people consider themselves bad singers, or refuse to sing at all. That's sad -- the idea of singing with other people just seems so fun. Maybe I should make CDs of myself singing songs from musicals I like, just for my own amusement. Maybe I should make amateur versions of those musicals.. Wouldn't that be fun? To get some people together? I could be Hedwig, or perhaps play Columbia again. So much conflict is necessary in the world, but it can be made bearable by mixing it with expression. It's odd, working with people who have families, who have settled down, and have lost much of that very special spark that we had as children. You blink, and next thing you know, you're a housewife or businessperson, talking about football, raising those kids, driving that SUV, watching that TV, a consumer of culture. I'm somehow hovering in the chasm after that waterfall, holding myself up by my bootstraps. I hope to swim the river back most of the way when I can. Imagine what it means to be a whole person.