I think I've been changed by the crush I mentioned in my last entry. Somehow, knowing that I find her to be almost a suitable companion makes the lingering feelings about Martha fade. Martha hasn't been in my dreams recently. Admittedly, *she* has, but the fact that it's not Martha is a good thing. I think maybe I'm really over Martha this time. I feel some pent-up calmness and a different kind of regret now for those times, but no longer the fascination. So long as this crush doesn't lead to any problems, maybe I'm actually ready for another relationship with someone. I almost feel confident, and I actually feel somewhat more physically energetic. So life, toss someone my way :) But, take your time -- Martha's now mostly out of my mind. Huzzah!