I don't feel lonely anymore. It's strange how much we have in common. My life instincts are confused -- these kinds of wonderful things don't happen to me, but it seems that they have. I need to work on conquering that part of me that disbelieves in the possibility of my finding happiness. I eventually want my guard to be completely down again so I would share everything and be very very close. It's on its way in that direction, but it might be hard for me to conquer my impulses not to trust. I'll do my best, because I'm in love, and want things to last :)

This morning, I was woken up around 4AM by a power outage. The outage itself didn't wake me -- my UPS's did. They're incredibly loud, and woke up the neighbors too, who banged on the walls. Apparently, the surge preceding the outage took out one of my UPS's, and ruined one of the hard drives on my secondary workstation. Fortunately, it was the /usr/local partition, so nothing important was lost, but it's still a huge pain. Now neither of my two main workstations have much disk space. Argh. Oh well, I probably should get back to work -- maybe that software installation is further along now. I somehow need to replace the removed disks on both of my main workstations, but I really don't want to pay for it right now -- the O'Reilly trip and the upcoming move (fates permitting), and the possible jobseeking period down there (if I go that route, which I probably but not certainly will), are going to drain my financial reserves. If the fates permit me to move, and when I get my first paycheck down there, that'll probably be used to get the disks, unless I can line up a job, in which case I'll get them earlier.

I feel like someone who has recieved 3/4 of the components of a nice new workstation in the mail, and am waiting for the last parts. I hope the job there arrives soon, and takes away this uncertainty.