I never understood how you put so much silence in your words. Others compete -- you would never lower yourself that way.

Last night I indeed return to work around midnight, and worked straight until around 14:3 today, getting those laptops done and all that. It's funny -- there was a barrier to awakedness, I think I hit it around 03:, that once I moved past it, all the tiredness rapidly disappeared, and I just had a 'light burning' sensation fill me (the latenight indian food might've contributed to that though.. hehe). It definitely was/is an altered state of consciousness... I feel more alive, more focused, but also a lot of little details slip by me... kind of like an intensified me. I like it, but I know it's time to rest -- I have trouble interacting with people in this state, and tonight's PUSH meeting will be really cool, so I want to be awake for it.

Amusingly, I find my mind also easily slipping off into utter nonsense, not ideas that are just high-level incoherent, but ideas that hardly are ideas at all... I just closed my eyes for a second and my thoughts came to the idea of an angle drawn on the floor with a watermelon visible in it as if the chalk was of a 3d image. Must sleep.

Finally, at least for everyone but me, the last entry. I've been reading up more on buying a house, and based on the advice of an old guy at Coffee Tree last night, I found a really nice website with listings. I can almost say I'm in love with one of the houses there, at 5453 Wilkins (although only from the pictures and descriptions), but I can't afford a down payment of any kind, so I'm not yet ready to buy. $219k is an awful lot of money too, although if I could afford a down payment, according to the calculator thing I could actually afford a 30-year mortgage without too much additional strain (I have very few expenses outside of the recent emergencies, and my rent is already really expensive). Oh well... that house, cool as it is, is probably not going to still be around when I can actually afford a nice down payment. I guess I'll keep hoarding as much money as I possibly can and living well beneath my means until I have some decent money to plop down for this... And I'll keep reading the book someone at work loaned me on the topic. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz