Dear World, Pat temporarily is a bit beyond his quota for bad events, mistreatment, and other bs. Any further things of this type will be met with a good deal more hostility than normal until he manages to recover his self-esteem. Excessive amounts of further pushing will likely make Pat shatter like an egg. It is very rare that Pat reaches points like this in his life, and has taken a mix of extraordinarily abysmal things in almost every supporting life-area of Pat's self-esteem to reach this state, so things seen now might not resemble the absorb-problems-like-a-sponge unshakable attitude seen in normal circumstances.

Seriously, for only the second time in my life so far, I am in very serious need for something to go right, and for things to just get better, without too much effort I don't have the emotional energy to make spent.

One source of abuse, the greatest, is gone, albeit without even an apology or expression of regret.. the last I heard was the equivalent to "I don't want to talk about how I'm abusing you, because I want to be in a good mood later to watch something on TV. Shut up about it, or I'll spend the day without you". Screw that... The second source, it's still continuing, and I don't know if it can be fixed without ending that situation too (if that's even doable). The third is probably the result of the other two, and the fourth is .. I don't want to talk about it. And then there are the little things..

Too much. Just too much....