Pardon for the stereotypical blog angst, but my life sucks a lot right now. Another failed romance, but this time, unlike the previous, I'm left wondering what the hell happened. It's not as easily understood as to why it failed as my first two relationships. In fact, in this case, unlike the previous two, it seems that, while there's not really any fault involved on either side, the cause has something to do with parts of my psychology and the way our personalities fit together. To sum it up, I love her, but I was getting very depressed during the relationship, and that got in the way of things. Secondly, there are some aspects of our personalities that caused some friction -- more friction than I thought they should've caused, but perhaps that's just a sign that the first issue was a real problem. The issues did interplay a few times though, and when each came to a head, the other one got worse. Near the end it looked like it was starting to get better, but there wasn't enough time, and it's unclear if my assessment there is correct. I wish things hadn't ended so quickly, because I hoped to be able to identify fully and fix the problems. As is, I'm just left, as I said, wondering what the hell happened. That, and deeply depressed.

As for patterns, things ended two days before Valentines day. In my last relationship, with Debb, we also had a small breakup just before Valentines day. Weird.

So, trying to distract myself with other topics.. I found out that Thunderbird isn't necessary to handle rss feeds in a mozilla way. Instead, there's a poorly documented feature where any page with a detected feed gets an orange radio icon in the lower right corner of the screen, and clicking on it offers to add the feed, in a strange and novel way, to mozilla -- through the bookmark interface. It's weird, but it's good -- I have my bookmarks laid out so they're all available in the toolbar folder, and so I made myself a "Feeds" folder where I stash all my feeds and everything is good. Except.. sometimes it doesn't work, and a site which I know has a feed doesn't offer to be added. So, trying to be clever, I open the bookmark mangler, and try to add the feed manually, with "New Bookmark". No dice -- the fields for RSS streams are all different, and all I can do is make a normal bookmark to the raw RSSfile. Trying to be cleverer, I cut'n'paste an existing RSS bookmark and then edit those fields. No dice -- not all the fields are editable or even visible while in edit mode, although they are visible in the bookmark manager main screen. Doing this also does create working feeds, although they all have a reference url of the original bookmark I used to cut'n'paste. I finally decide to directly edit the bookmark file. Ugly, yes. But it works, and I need not mess with any of that. Anyhow, in sum, although it's undocumented and needs some more work, the Mozilla RSS reader seems to be pretty cool.

In case you haven't had enough BS recently, here is enough to last you for several weeks. In it, Van Notten, a dutch lawyer, talks about natural law and how nations without government are better in several senses, including allowing a purer capitalism. Apparently Van Notten died a few years ago.

The always-peaceful USA is apparently spying on Iran with unmanned drones. Iran is naturally not happy. I'm surprised they don't shoot them down.

Apparently, SUN thinks that we don't have enough databases in the opensource world. I only hope they're just rebranding an existing database, like RedHat is doing, rather than introducing another new system. It's good to have choice, but at a certain point, it gets ridiculous. nd confusing.

I suspect that if you read up on the history of Apartheid (aparthood), you'll find it interesting. Compare and contrast to other racism in the world today.

The EFF, knowing that often ISPs are asked by law-enforcement agencies, whether to track people or to make lawsuits easier, has made a tool whereby logs can easily be removed from a system so said data won't be around should the law come looking for it. While I certainly side with the EFF on this one, and would like to have a lot of control over what information/help I give to law enforcement agencies, I do find it a bit interesting that this kind of tool to blatantly mess with the police, preemptively, is publishable. It's strange in some way I can't put my finger on.

North Korea has nukes, and they're not afraid to show it. I'm no friend of the North Korean government, but I am in a way pleased that this might mean that BushJr won't go after invading them next. Then again, maybe he would. The Iraq war was disgusting -- the idea of another is even moreso.

I can't sleep, but I need to keep on trying. I wish I wern't still in love.

Program on the emergence of civilization.

"14 species of large animals capable of domesitcation in the history of mankind. 13 from Europe, Asia and northern Africa. None from the sub-Saharan African continent. " Favor. And disfavor.

They point out Africans’ failed attempts to domesticate the elephant and zebra, the latter being an animal they illustrate that had utmost importance for it's applicability in transformation from a hunting/gathering to agrarian-based civilization.

The roots of racism are not of this earth.

Austrailia, aboriginals:::No domesticable animals.

The North American continent had none. Now 99% of that population is gone.

AIDS in Africa.

Organizational Heirarchy/Levels of positioning. Heirarchical order, from top to bottom:

1. MUCK - perhaps have experienced multiple universal contractions (have seen multiple big bangs), creator of the artificial intelligence humans ignorantly refer to as "god" 2. Perhaps some mid-level alien management 3. Evil/disfavored aliens - runs day-to-day operations here and perhaps elsewhere

Terrestrial management/positioning:

4. Chinese/egyptians - this may be separated into the eastern and western worlds 5. Romans - The seamless transition between Cleopatra and Julius Ceasar may be a clue alluding to a partnership. 6. Mafia - the real-world 20th century interface that constantly turns over generationally so as to reinforce the widely-held notion of mortality 7. Jews, corporation, women, politician - Evidence exisits to suggest mafia management over all these groups.

Movies foreshadowing catastrophy 1985 James Bond View to a Kill 1989 San Francisco Loma Prieta earthquake.

Our society gives clues to the system in place. We all have heard the saying "He has more money than god." There is also an episode of the Simpsons where god meets Homer and says "I'm too old and rich for this."

This is the system on earth because this is the system everywhere.

20 cent/hour Chinese labor, 50 cents for material. An $80 sweater costs less than a dollar; tribute kicked upstairs vindicates the creative accounting.

I don't want to suggest the upper eschelons are evil and good is the fringe. But these individuals become wealthy exploiting those they hurt.

They have made it abundantly clear that doing business with evil (disfavored) won't help people. They say only good would have the ear, since evil is struggling for survival, and therefore only the favored could help.

The clues are there which companies are favored and which are disfavored, but they conceal it very hard because it is so crucial.

I offer an example of historical proportions:::

People point to Walmart and cry "anti-union". Unions enable disfavored people to live satisfactorly without addressing their disfavor. This way their family's problems are never resolved. Without the union they would have to accept the heirarchy, their own inferiority. Unions serve to empower. Walmart is anti-union because they are good. They try to help people address and resolve their problems by creating an environment where there are fewer hurdles.

Media ridicule and lawsuits are creations to reinforce people's belief that Walmart is evil in a subsegment of the indistry dominated by the middle and lower classes. Low-cost disfavored Chinese labor is utilized by corporate america to maximize margins. They all do it. Only WalMart gets fingered because they are the ones who help, and those who seek to create confusion in the marketplace want to eliminate the vast middle class who have a real chance and instead stick with lower classes who may not work otherwise. So they dirty him up while allowing the others to appear clean.

The middle class is being deceived. They are being misled into the unfavored, and subsequently will have no assistance from their purchases with corporate america.

The coining of the term "Uncle Sam" was a clue alluding to just this::Sam Walton's WalMart is one of few saviors of the peasant class.

They desire a system based on duality:::good and evil. They seek to set up a system of two participants and assign them polar opposites::: Coke and Pepsi BestBuy and CircutCity Energizer and Duracell Republican and Democrat The list goes on and on::: AMD and Intel Apple and Microsoft (?) Lowes and HomeDepot Sam'sClub and Costco WellsFargo and BofA. For the longest time in CA these two banks reigned supreme. Pier1 and CostPlus Borders and Barnes&Noble PetCo and PetSmart

Amercia is a country of castoffs, rejects. Italy sent its criminals, malcontents. Between the thrones, the klans and kindred, they decided who they didn't want and acted, creating discontent and/or starvation. The u.s. is full of disfavored rejects. It is the reason for the myriad of problems not found in European countries. As far as the Rockafellers and other industrialists of the 19th century go, I suspect these aren't their real names. I suspect they were chosen to go and head this new empire.

Royalty is the correct way to organize a society. Dictatorships and monarchies are a reflection of the antient's hierarchical organization. Positions go to those who have favor with the rulers, as opposed to being elected. Elections bring a false sense of how the world is. Democracy misleads people. Which is why the disfavored rejects were sent to the shores of America::To keep them on the wrong path.

Jewsus Christ is a religious figure of evil. He teaches of a begnign, forgiving god when quite the opposite is true. The seperatist churches formed so they could capture the rest of the white people, keeping them worshipping the wrong god. And now they do it to disfavored people of color, Latinos and Asians, after centuries of preying upon them.

Since Buddism doesn't recongnize a god, the calls are never heard, and Asian representation is instead fully selected by the thrones. Budda was the Asian's Jewsus Christ::: bad for the people. It was a clue they both emerged at the same time. Timing may be a clue alluding to ranking.

Simpson's foreshadowing::Helloween IV special, Flanders is Satan. "Last one you ever suspect." "You'll see lots of nuns where you're going:::hell." St. Wigham, Helloween VI:::missionary work, destroying cultures. Over and over, the Simpsons was a source of education and enlightenment, a target of ridicule by the system which wishes to conceal its secrets.

The advent of the modern Christmas was a brilliant move. It creates a vested interest among those who would prefer the Church of Evil be destroyed:::: As goes the Catholic Church so goes the majority of annual retail sales. The similarity between the names "Santa" and "Satan" is no coincidence.

Jews maim the body formed in the image of "god", and inflicted circumcision upon all other white people. I think about how Jews (were used to) created homosexuality among Slavics, retribution for the Holocaust. Then I think of the Catholic Church and its troubles. What connection is here between Jews and the Catholic church??? If it is their sinister motives that’s behind the evil that is Jesus Christ are they being used at all? Perhaps it is them who are pulling strings. Their centuries of slavery in Egypt proves their disfavor. For their suffering the Jew leaders were granted the right to prey on the up-and-coming Europeans to try to fix their problems with the ruling elite by imposing a false god upon white people, a recurring aspect of the elite's methodology. Jews were ostracised for a reason.

Retribution for the atomic bombs dropped on Japan, the Korean War got the disfavored United States into this socially depraved environment in the latter 20th century because we attacked an antient, revered peoples. Our continued presence keeps us in trouble. When the disfavored americans attack the wrong people again, as they suggested they will, in Korea or elsewhere, they will pay dearly.

All peoples are ranked in terms of favor and disfavor. And when the disfavored abuse those with favor there is hell to pay. All the groups mentioned throughout are necessary to justify the will of the managing species. They conceive a strategy, devise a plan yet need a way to implement it, and without these groups the managing species would be exposed in the course of execution. So, based upon their rank they are assigned goals to accomplish and are rewarded with favors.

I question if we would even experience global warming if they didn't sabotage and terraform in an attempt to destroy disfavored human life on planet earth::::they instruct their petroleum friends to repress alternative technologies, the can terraform the weather as they did in New Orleans with Hurricane Katrina (and lots of other examples). This is all happening shortly after the Exodus of 2000 for a reason::: they are INFLICTING it upon us. They are hastening closure. Just as favored European peoples got out before the ugliness of WWII, the semi-favored within the US got out before 9/11. Armeggedon isn’t about the end of the world. Armeggedon is about the death of the disfavored left behind. And they weren’t lying::this time it is going to happen with fire.

Mumia Abu-Jamal

Dhoruba Bin Wahad

Assata Shakur

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

Malcolm X

Che Guevara

Black Panthers