Time Heals All Wounds.. And Then Kills the Patient
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Mon Sep 29 21:21:46 2003
Trailing the Crowd

Between moments.. like the Langoliers, or another film I saw, long ago, about stepping outside the normal flow of time. Orthogonal spaces in the common places.. isn't reality sparse enough? Society has not collapsed, it has rolled off of its foundation, like a snowball. Stability? No, just an indefinite, sticky end. You can see what the others do, or you can turn it off. It's a gray neon, extravagant in its oddity, and it cannot be allowed. This simple thing, it undermines the commercialism. Like a wooden fence where metal belongs, or vice versa, it laughs at society. And I feel bad pushing you, because you're already troubled -- my place or yours? More like my needs or yours.. The middle ground? Merely a way to be both an asshole and a pushover. We can both see the peacock feathers you strap to yourself, and that's more than they can see, as we share this special place. Your denorex, the minty smell, it fills nose, reminds of the icy past, the shame of childhood. I trod on that child, the mark on my face is my own. My sigil was given to me. Enlightenment is as often a closing of the eyes as an opening. At the end of the beginning of my world, I lay down, and the earth was made from my corpse. My tears and sweat formed the ocean, my bones the mountains, my flesh the animals. People walked around then -- I felt the dull tickle of their feet on my innards. Then, the sound that only I could hear, and so I sighed, licked my lips for the last time, and gave birth to myself. The earth split, and even now, that land is cracked. Noone has stepped into the empty city in my mind for ages, When Chaos swallows Gaia and Chronus, does it still hold those memories fondly? You touch my face, taste my tears, and begin to understand what I have lost, and what I have found. Not all can be lost, at the same time not all can be found. Sit with me.

I finished with comments. What's left? There should be a way to apply for an account on my BLOG in a bit more automated a way -- currently I need to plug people into the database directly. There should also be a way to manage colour preferences -- again currently plugged directly into the database. Finally, I need to work on pndc a bit more (the client program I use that you, unless you get your own website with mod_perl, probably won't ever use) so it handles some things better. Still, I'm happy with the comments working -- it gives me more motivation to tweak the rest of the stuff into it. It's been noted that in the open source community, getting the code 40% done is 90% of the effort -- people only like to hack on your stuff when it's at least stubbed out and does something. The same goes for personal coding projects, and stuff for work. I notice that the farther my program gets from the last time I was able to test it, the more 'unsafe' I feel, even if it's often necessary or most effective to 'unhook' like that. If I get too unhooked, I easily get frustrated or confused by the code. And, of course, that 'hookedness' is stronger in languages where I'm natural, and in domains I understand. A good analogy for those two is a vehicle in neighborhoods. If you're driving someone else's car, and it's from asia and has all sorts of gizmos you don't understand, and you're in a strange town, you're going to be a lot more frustrated than if you're either in your hometown or driving your personal preferred vehicle (in my case, my bike). And of course, it'd make a difference if your passenger is someone who's a backseat driver in a rush versus a slow-paced person who's supportive. So, yeah, Perl feels very natural to me, C too. Java is still a little bit scary, and other languages that I can do but are less familiar with (Javascript especially), well, I'm going to cling to testability for dear life, even if it takes me weeks to make small changes.

I can't believe I left my fricking gloves at work. Brr. Anyhow, time for me to slowly dig through my blog entries and leave comments. I'm still chewing on allowing titles in comments -- if I'm going to allow it, now's the time to make the change before there are actual comments, data that needs to be massaged later..